the only time He ran

i ran away...
yes i left home...

i ran away...
i shoved off His hands...

i ran away...
i was so eager to do so...

i ran away...

i knew i broke His heart...

Then He ran to me
took me in His arms
held my head to His chest
said my son's coming home again
lifted my face
wipe the tears off my eyes
with forgiveness in His voice
i felt His love for me again...

He ran to me...
now i run to Him...

the tuqi game

um chit chit um chit, um chit chit um chit




um chit chit um chit, um chit chit um chit




um chit chit um chit, um chit chit um chit.....

..

!

holis finishing!

making a quick blog here..

holis are ending... nothing much to blog actually... like.. really seriously truthfully... in fact.. i have never been more truthful than this.. i've nothing much to blog... really.. i really have nothing to blog... reallly... why don't you believe me? what.... i'm really saying the truth...

what..

oh... i blogged... ok...

HAHAHA... ok hahaha... i'm crazily sound.. not mentally.. but what to do... holis are ending...

hahaha ok.. i'm lame... well it's my blog.. i'm free to blog that i have nothing to blog even though i blogged rite?

ok ok lol.... rite... haha i'm going to be brutally honest( to myself) ... i didn't really do that much this holis... been a house-son... practise my guitar and i mean practise.. not playing a fool.. the rest of it is spent resting my ailing body.. yeah i'm getting old.. oh well.. so other than that i've been working.. yeah miss that part out.. haha i worked as a delivery man, man! haha cool rite... so i get to travel around.. and just enjoy myself.. no limits.. no nothing.. i get paid for how much i deliver.. and i delivered, yellow pages... ppl said if i deliver food, at least i can grab a few bites.. and newspaper, i get to read... but heh!! yellow pages are even better hahaha.. i get to smack ppl! that's rite.. they're thick haha almost bullet-proof! haha so lixin and elvin.. if u wanna bullet-proof ur marriage, use yellow pages... they're free!

alrite otherwise i really have nothing much to blog about haha.. maybe i'll just go through some pics that i find interesting.. rite...

now can anybody please enlighten me and tell me what this sign means? i cannot, at all, comprehend this complicated sign.. somehow mathematically ...

ahhhh wowww! now it all makes sense with the zero at the back...

ay this is my incredible pomeranian bobo... rite so apparently it's posing hahaha...
alrite so long la... haha

small things...kids!!!

(ezekiel)



(sonia)

(samuel)

(ah oh well child of God can?)

(ryan)

(that unattended bubble tea is mine so i'm squatting with them ok..)

(gerald)

(faith!!)

"Therefore, anyone who becomes as humble as this little child

is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven"

these little children...

ALL THE EARTH!!

Father, into your courts I will enter

maker of heaven and earth

tremble in your holy presence

Glory, Glory in your sanctuary

splendor and majesty Lord

Before you all life adores you

chorus

All the Earth will declare

that your love is everywhere

the fields will exalt, seas resound

Hear the trees, joyful cry

praising you and so will I

new song I'll sing

Lord I will glorify and bless your Holy name

all the earth praises you... Lord, so will I.... so will I...

the last paper

making a quick update here.. haha thurs is the last paper! woots.. rite.. then i'm free!
oh well... i think i won't do so well for this exams.. but never mind.. the goal.. is to get As hahaha..
so i probably need only some decent results to get it..

and my birthday comes just the day after my exams finishes! haha.. not that i'm celebrating but yeah.. gonna be great... my last teen year leh...

tdm this sat! back in action...

i'm sooo going to service babe kangoo.. hahha.. in terrible shape.. i have.. a handbrake signal that is always on... a car door signal that mysteriously turns on ocasionally.. a speedometer that sometimes deccides to take a rest.. an air-con system that somehow eats up like half of my engine's power? yeah when i turn it on.. yeah luckily i've found myself a reliable renault mechanic... at least hopefully he is..

my parents went out of town.. which means they won't be with me when my birthday comes.. oh well.. they need this holiday themselves.. haha and i don't wanna bother their trip.. besides.. i'm having exams please..

so long blogger!

in the midst of my exams now..

not much of a trouble but..

yeah i've learnt the term hugging of JC's feet at the last moments haa

but yeah exams are cool.. not that bad..

i was looking everywhere, anywhere, anyhow for some

inspiration

until i realised what inspired means..

in greek i think it means 'God-breathed'

yup... not that simple...

thorough thoughts

sometimes i do ponder back at those days... when bro wilson was still around... sounds weird.. but i do miss him.. he left unsaid.. along with many others..

much can still be done for other less fortunate people... sometimes i just don't know how.. sometimes i use the B word... sometimes i feel helpless myself...

i do at times wonder why i got my first 4 demerit points within a month.. i'm probably the fastest on the record...

they say that the diff between driving fuel-conciously and F1 inspired ones in terms of reaching a destination is a couple of minutes... nothing wrong with having fuel in mind, just that i wonder how many mutiples of couple of minutes will be gone if u tried the first method with f1 racers at your back... which leads me to another point...

not so far from the future, i believe, the TP might instigate new laws, including the 'keep right unless overtaking' law... won't it be good... car drivers who already wants to go slow at those right lanes can continues doing so.. then those exiting can then move to the left lanes... safer...

i love my dad... I WANT HIM TO STOP SMOKING...

i realise my brother just started smoking not long ago...

my family- i don't think i can ever recover myself if i ever lose any of them.. and i can have all the inheritance in this world, but nothing if i can't share my joy.. without them i can never be whole... never...

oh Lord...

doggy investment

rite making a quick blog here... there's an addition to the Tan family recently...

not really mine.. ours.. my bro's the rightful owner of her.. or him i don't know.. i don't even know the breed.. shwizer of whatever i heard... cute but likes to bite.. oh well

happy birthday spore!

ahh national day is coming.. haha i finally managed to catch a glimpse of the song for national day this year... was at posb when it came out.. it says sung by kit chan.

why is it sung by kit chan?

haa, because sing is used up by our country's name...

and.. sang by sanghri la utama...

rite... happy birthday my country.. i'm blessed to be part of you...

Exodus

ha i was reading my bible when i read this scripture... now i don't really understand the bible very well i must say.. a big portion still remains uncovered... i'm quite stupid.. yeah i know.. but when i read this part of God's word... i instantly knew what it meant.. it's almost as if God's telling me personally.. check this out.. it's in exodus during Israel's big move ot of Egypt...

"Leaving Succoth, they camped at Ethan on the edge of the wilderness. The Lord guided them by a pillar of cloud during the day and a pillar of fire at night. That way they could travel whether it was day or night. And the Lord did not remove the pillar of cloud or pillar of fire from their sight." Exodus 13:20-22

wow...

MY WHEEL lol

oh well... i was driving on the bukit timah expressway when suddenly there's a wooden plank on my lane.. i couldn't evade it on time... managed to get it to hit only my left wheels... as a result my wheel got out of shape... and my cover fell off and is somewhere in BKE... haaa

so i went on to BKE and got my wheel out of shape and thankfully my tyre didn't puncture...i should like feature this on a bridgestone tyres advertisment.. yeah bridgestone tyres are good.. end of story.. oh and now my dad have to change the wheel... haa.. starting to feel like a liability..

haha top gear!!

HAHA this is extremely hilarious hahaha




check out the screeching screen wipers..




notice the cracking sound when jeremy's driving the saafa romeo or what they calls it haha!





hahaha




come on... just give me those cars la.. wha lau hahhaa

church camp

wha haha church camp is great!! the sessions are good.. haha the second one would be better i guess.. considering the number of youths that went.. haha i heard daniel and gerald went there only to wrestle during their free time... until pastor jeremy came and delievered them out of their wrestling desires... seriously..

alrite.. moving on... i guess i can summarise church camp into a few words... refreshing... hmm pastor Jack is great.. considering that his dad just went back to the Lord.. and him being here with us instead was a great sacrifice... maybe he felt compelled.. but then again he'd have showed that motivation in his sermons... never... pastor luke barnett is a great speaker too... haha i really appreciate him haha... i'd never forget one of his sermon... just that i forgot the name of it.. hahaha... oh well...

my first ever church camp... great... be going there often now.. haha.. next year if i can... CAN!! haha can...

alrite.. it's also about eating too.. the food there man... haha i literally spend everything on food alone.. all my ringgits... haha and i probably used up all the eating adjectives, noun, verbs, any words involving makan combined... oh well.. so much for food... it's cheap too! dollar for ringgit... what's more i still have the buffet breakfast lunch and dinner back at the hotel.. so i was like... eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat.. yeat.. lol... oh well ok now i have to work out... drats that's the hard part... hmmm actually the hard part is eating... a lot of work done already on eating... haaa

weekly report

aite... nothing much but exams... haaa EXAMS!! not bad good expectations... except for MDES which caught me off-guard .... haaa .... finishing tml so yay!! haha and after this.... CHURCH CAMP!! woots.. so glad i can make it this year... yay...

daddy Tan got a couch for babe kangoo early this week... haha so... and i kinda dressed up the couch so... and added carpet into babe kangoo goods cabin so.... haaa... been fetching ppl here and there for now... wha haha one of this days... i'm gonna secretly install a meter fare... haha singapore first kangoo taxi.. hmmmm let's call it KANGeeeerrrrOO!! haha kangeroo good what.. fast.. got pouch somemore esther foong is gonna like it ho es? just pretend my couch as a pouch.. rite...

haaa that's all... ohh and happy birthday jon!!

the big blessing...

alrite alrite i'm gonna make a quick blog... wa hahahha i've got a gift from my dad.. woots!

HAHAHA a car-van!! heh heh... Renault D65 Kangoo...

haha man it's cool... it's like a normal car, except its pick-up, which i don't really care( drats my dad must have chose this instead of a car since i got my speeding ticket within barely one month)... diesel engine so it's like fuel-saving... and diesel's cheap wha haha full tank 38 bucks... and the price is only barely 12k... it's five years old now.. and i still have 10 years of COE!! haha cos the owner renewed it when the COE renewal went down to just 1 bucks.. sorry buck... how cheap... ahha THANK GOD! woots! heh... good mint condition.. barely had to change anything haa... it came within 3 days last wed... i've used only 20 bucks of fuel HA!

and what's more.... today... haaa my dad went to install a brand new stereo system!! HO HO HO HO it's haha wonderful!

Pioneer stereo!

wha haha it plays my Ipod.. and wma, mp3 woots! the speakers are fantastic.. haha yay!

Thanks God!

and thanks, dad, now i'll study hard... work hard... and play harder... then study harder... then... you get what i mean...

happy mother's day!

OK making my first ever mother's day post...not so much about mother's day though.. but nevertheless.. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! you guys.. sorry ladies.. are a miracle for struggling kids like mee..

i realise i've been rather slumpy this period of time.. lazy.. tired.. but there's still so much work to do..

i didn't really start my semester decently.. this are my modules:

MEPCAD- Mechanical Engineering Practice and computer aided drawing.
MAMS- Mechanical aspects of mechatronic system
MDES-Mechanical design
MEM-modern engineering materials
DEL-digital electronics
ROCK-History of rock and roll
BAE-Business and the economy

so.. i've realised that teachers in this sem are rather.. independence-inducing... if there's such a word... some are just arggghhh... rahhh.. but well haa the onus is still on me... haaaa...take mr Thi Han is one of my lecturer... many of us find that he's boring... nothing much... but i think he's only plain.. simple.. and if i look deeper, i'd be able to see lots and lots of interesting stuff.. his way of imagining a mechatronic system(yes he's my MAMS cher) and i'll start to see the things he couldn't explain out verbally... then we have some who.. well.. haa don't know how to say.. great sedative voices... ahha...

so much for schooling..

safety first..

that's where my dad's 1.6K went to.. for my driving liscense haaa..

i've been driving here and there now for 2 weeks... so i'm pretty much in 'tune' with the normal road users habit... does that means i can forgo safety? haha nope..

i have to explain first of all... my dad will be the man who will hold onto my handbrakes when i start driving... haaa man it's quite irritating when we reached a jam or hold-up... yeah my dad's quite an impatient guy... so i thought.. maybe i should try driving the way he drives.. let him have a feel of how i feel when he's driving... which is very very fast.. but he's skilled la i'm not.. so...

the result is very enlightening... my dad shares the same sentimentality with me haa!! but while driving like this i almost had an accident.. so i was going down from timah.. then i notice this vios driver driving pretty slow... i think he's either not qualified to drive or he's just a starter... but i'm not going to assume... let's just say he(or she) wasn't so careful at that moment.. what happened was he overtook a bus and went onto the right lane, the lane i was in... then he drove pretty slow... and i was about to turn left then, so i moved to the left and hurried off while he remained on the right lane.. when i was almost next to him, he then signalled left and moved left, where my car was(didn't check blindspot). i was like ?!???!.. jam braked... biang.. my dad flew off the seat.. cos well, he never puts on seatbelts.. while i was rather concern with my dad, i thought.. i almost had an accident.. actually before that i kinda have a vision that that vios was about to move to the left.. and something's not right with the driver... whatever it is.. i shouldn't have went ahead to meet up with that vios.. but because of that vision when that vios conveniently switches it's lane i was prepared to stop... thank God... it was His vision..

i thought to myself.. haha pap, now let's see if u still wanna complain that i drive slowly.. then i thought again.. no from now onwards i'm going to put safety first no matter what.. fast or slow i'm going to follow safety and be aware and conscious of it.. no one can change that unless they wanna take over my seat.. i'm not going to bother whether my dad nags at me anymore.. no more personal agenda... driving is a pleasure.. let me enjoy it haaaa

Jesus, take over my wheel

weekends!

ahhh my Longed for weekend... after this week of haa how should i put it? hell? haha no la cannot be... hell's much worse than this... anyways i had two 8-5 and one 9-5 days of lessons this week.. haa well if God hadn't intercede and put a tues labour day break this week.. i guess i'd be stuck in this week... application hang... computer terms... ok for the first time.. i admit i'm a bit random..

I've been bad too la.. playing computer games ENDLESSLY.. hahaha... and not concentrating on studies a lil more.. oh well.. at least i'm done with cnc3... woots completed.. finally la.. not that i'm lousy but the game keeps crashing on my com hahaha.. so can u imagine how tired i am playing the same old missions all over again? oh well...

i've realised that i can't really speak normally now... now that i'm being trained more deeply into engineering.. i'm trapped inside engineering terms.. AHH HELP!! haa but i enjoy it la.. engineering.. guess what i'm learning now... i'm learning stress and strain.. haha it feels like i'm learning the psychological part of it.. haha but no i'm actually learning about the principles of stresses and strain on an object... but whenever i listen to the lecturer speaking i can't help but think of me being that object.. so much for engineering haa...

i think at the end of this week.. i can say that i'm tired but quite happy... haaa met up with my friends a lot this week.. and spent a lot as well haha... gosh...


i am found in You

into schooldays

HAAAA 2 and a half weeks of school days gone... i haven really got things started for most of my modules... really have to put in the effort haha... honestly speaking... i kinda miss last semester.. all the lecturers, all the lectures haha and my TIMETABLE!! geeee....

anyways haha i have, according to my aunt hehe reached a milestone... yup mark it 26 april 2007 thursday... Jason Tan ah tan beat the odds to successfully obtain a driving license!! But glory to God hahaha... heh heh.. boy i forgot to release handbrake and even strike kurb cos kan chiong... same tester that failed me hahah... he remembered me la... but because he remembered me he know that i can do better.. so it's actually a blessing in disguise haa.. dispite all the mistakes i still passed so thank God... haaa now i'm going to use it for a greater cause likeee... emmmmm... drive? yeah tombang friends haha... woots haha..

FAMILY DAY on 28 april 2007 Saturday... mark that down too i think i made history too.. i mean we... we meaning Elvin, Esther Tan, Esther Foong, Eric Tan, Caleb Seah, Me.. haha we did the 6 ppl slide on one raft.. hahaha i tell you the crew couldn't push our raft out... and when it did it made a huge farting sound cos it hit the bottom of the slide when it's suppose to float.. well the history is that we are probably the fastest ever to go from top to bottom... i thought it was a rocket la.. haha the camera missed us for the picture a few times lol... for once i'm proud we are fat... emm ok i'm probably just heavy.. but yeahhh... i like fats.. we're too fat but still furious.... woots..

talking about fats reminded me about 200 pounds beauty which is a very very good show to watch... it touched me haaa... MARRIIIAAAAAA!! AVE MARIA woots... haha thank God for fats...

moving on

Whoa school starting... seems like a great holiday... mind you i'm not regretting it.. in fact.. i think i enjoyed it.. really got it working.. refreshing... true enough God had been graceful and merciful towards me in this holidays..

" A wise youth works hard all summer; a youth who sleeps away the hour of opportunity brings shame" - Proverbs 10 : 5.

As i read this verse i thought.. why summer?.. why hour of opportunity?.. what significance does these words brings? why specifically youths? It was then that i realise it meant the holidays.. summer means holidays.. hour of opportunity, that's the real meaning behind holidays.. thank you Lord.. for being with me all this while, patiently transforming my heart, making it burn for you, and even though everything i did was meant to gorify you, all you ever thought of was to watch me grow.. to the person you want me to be.. thank you..

this week is haha.. well great? hmm we had the youth activity which haha we won in captain's ball woots! reg F.. though i contributed.. it's all of us that won the competition.. as one family =) ... i was pretty badly hurt in the soccer argh never ever play soccer in a field without boots.. but i enjoyed it anyways.. it's ok reg Ds =).. i was playing like we were one church.. afterall we are one church, not different regions.. that's 2 different thinking in all.. ermm i wanna thank jason oon and elvin foong for the wonderful worship too at edge haha you guys rock man! we should have that acoustic worship often it sounds very.. simple... yet able to touch me deeply.. that's all worship is about.. i think haaa..

ok ok.. i am tired again so pardon me hahaha... have fast track syndrome..
ok back track to fri i had a great net meeting!! ahhhh great meaning big, and fantastic time together! it's elvin's birthday! haha we kinda suprised him hahaha.. heyy and i think we touched him woooo hehe.. I'm starting to understand more about suprise now haha.. and i lead worship too! haha i guess it was better this time.. yeah i wanna try to lead worship more often.. i wanna worship.. not just songs..

ok so to sunday.. i almost couldn't drag my body out of bed in the morning.. sore all over.. but i got up with the help of God.. yup just thinking of Him.. think think think until suddenly realise i'm brushing my teeth.. funny rite? i had a full day too.. lessons are great i think they are good.. and funny( jon, eden and wei siang don't u agree? hahaha) i didn't get to play with ashton hahaha hehe waaaaa he was very tired after the ordeal he went through.. poor thing terribly sick with a viral fever.. haa sayang sayang.. the family also went through a lot this week.. 2 kids sick.. salute bro stanley and sis regina! you guys are great parents! haha! hope to learn more from you guys in... ermmm...... say... 10 years from now? maybe la huhh... haha let's not think too much... ehhh i'm the one thinking too much... ok let me not think too much... aiyaaa....

soooo anyways i played with baby RAY instead... don't the name sound cool? RAY.. cool.. he's gonna be the next darryl ong mann haha jumping all around the sanctuary following the rythm of sis jidi's drumming... haha... then i had nursery haha so now i'm filled with all the baby annointings.. a lot of them are sick so i guess most of the annointing consist of viruses and germs.. cool...

ALL IN ALL... still loving God.. grateful.. thankful.. speechless... =)

what a weekend!!

HAAAA... what a weekend... haha first in saturday morning i played basketball with eden wei siang and friends.. their friends... so i went home with my whole body aching.. and i cycled there and back.. haha so when i reached home.. i took a bath.. then dashed straightaway to my bed.. and lied there.. it felt good.. to just lie there and know i am resting..

Oh yeah and before that i was awake at like 6.30 am. like for no real reason.. and i chatted with my friend who is going back to indonesia.. he's like leaving in a few hours.. and i thought wow just like that.. the world's small now..

anyways.. so i slept for 3 hours.. and i woke up dragging my body up for edge bbq.. got it up anyways.. but felt cranky and blurish during the bbq.. so the first thing i went there was naturally to look for baby ashton to play with haha but haaa only his daddy came.. yeah i figured this kinda event better to let the kids stay at home.. the food and the atmosphere isn't really suitable.. haha ashton would prob be drooling at the food all over the place.. and the food was ermm not bad la.. the beef steak was great.. juicy =P.. (ok the dots in front is actually me drooling)and then i had fun blowing off the people's candles haha muahahaha i did the sniper whereby i stand far away and blow.. hai if i were them i would have just lift my flame up high.. it only sounds logical.. like a lighthouse.. oh well..

okay first of all you have to forgive mee for this post not properly done cos i'm very much beat now.. and i'm taking jim nom pei pa kao now.. yeah advisable to prevent heatiness.. haaa

so before alll these i had a great net dayy! hahaha it's friday.. yup i'm lagging *stroking the knife and jumping infinitely( counterstrike)* ... haa lead a debut worship guitaring which.. hai.. haha.. then we went to enaq to eat yummm.. i'll save u the details..

=P...

so alrite skipp to sunday.. so in the morning i had carpark duty.. the first day tiger having it.. rahhhh all u who brought tyzus into 'carpark ministry'.. haha dieeeee hahaa.. then after which i went to service.. i was quite suprised pastor jeremy was there even before i started my duty.. which is pretty early.. he probably drifted the whole expressway.. haha

so before the service ended i went up to help bring the food.. before i finished 3 boxes pastor andrew called sheena me and bro andrew down alr to lead the 'workout'. hai.. flopped hahaha the track didn't work rahhhh sheeennnaaa.. so the worship band made the music.. so the sequence is no longer there.. and we did our own on the spot workout hahaha.. wha i wanna hide my face alr laaa.. it was a laugh-out instead.. the food was KFC.. hmm KFC, VFC.. so it's like ok not bad.. i helped myself 2 times..

=P..................................................................... hungry la

so anyways after that i had to shift the entire back rows of seats back.. cos we need more chairs as it's combined service in the morning( so we actually shifted it out too..) i thank God for some humble brothers who are willing to help me out.. OHH BEFORE THAT i played with ashton and haha i coaxed him to sleep while carrying him.. yay *victory sign* .. He drooled over my head laaaaa haha annointing.. hehe( man of God! man of God! man of God!)

so by God's grave.. GRACE*.. grace grace grace.. we finished packing the sanctuary up... it felt great serving.. ok then we went to play soccer.. yeah soccer.. i goalkept and slept through it anyways.. so tired.. and lazy.. that i ask gerrad to goalkeep instead and i play outfield.. but it's also because he thought goalkeeping is easy.... haaa

so i was tired all along the weekend haha starting from the bball activity.. didn't touch that kind of ball for one year.. but i guess i still can choose my response.. whether to say i am tired.. or something else..

REGION F!!

HI HI HI! haha i've realised that throughout my blogging history.. i haven post anything about the wonderful region i'm in! haaa.. yup that's the pic.. though all i can see is baby ashton looking at me haha.. don't be jealous.. =p oh and elvin being squashed by so many ppl.. hahaha

alrite.. F.. what a wonderful alphabet.. so that makes region F wonderful.. isn't it? NOPE IT's the people in it! haha.. I shall use words starting with F to describe them.. and elaborate only on some heh heh heh..

FABULOUS... FAT( haha! that's good.. i figured if we were to be like the 40 soldiers who went to the iced river to die, we'd last longer.. ehh so fat's good)... FANTASTIC... FAMOUS( yeah man.. look at jason oon *Clap handsss* haha)... FAITHFUL... FERVENT... FIT... FIRST-EVER( and never ever.. haa cause i believe there's not a region like ours before haha).. FISCAL( a lot of the guys in army.. so we're very connected to the government haha).. FLAMBOYANT... FUN.. FUNNY.. very FUNNY...

Yup that's my region.. grateful for them.. =) .. though all i can still see in the picture is only baby ashton looking at me ..

a day with my wife...

Alrite alrite.. remember my previous post i spoke about how love is suppose to be proactive.. rite it's previous previous.. haha ok anyways.. i realised i haven been spending quality time with my wife.. so i promised her to spend a whole day with her.. the results is pretty fruitful..

I drank with it.. oh sorry her..

i ate with her..

i even made my bed with her..( it is really a difficult thing to do la)

i won't say it out cause it sounds wrong.. =)

anyways.. just my way to say i love my guitar... the result is like i said very very fruitful! It, oh i mean she, sounded less naggy... meaning more pleasant.. I'm serious.. man..

-_-

Song Kah "backstage"

Alright alright.. I'm sure most of you guys don't reallly know what actually goes on in a typical funeral palour.. well what happened is it was my grandma's 1st death anniversary I think. So the reason for doing this is to respect her, I think... So hope you guys would understand more with this post, note that I'm trying to understand it too.. it seems complicated.. and now, Let's go on to song kah "backstage"...

I woke up early mourning, bringing down this pile of ingots.. I think... A lot isn't it? My dad made them.. actually it's not just my dad.. let's leave it that they were hand-made...

Alright a closer picture of these hand-made ingots..












After that was the rituals..

See those 2 priest sitting there? I don't know what they are talking about, they are speaking hokkien, but from the tone i think they are actually conversing to each other.. hmmm... oh the thing in front of them is the fortress, or palace.. or whatever they call them la.. meant for my grandma..

See that man playing the music instrument there? there's one stick sticking out so he can clamp it into his bottom.. so i presume they don't share that instrument.


This is the highlight.. it's in the toliet.. it says ' come hurry hurry, go also flush flush'....


The food offerings...

and my plate of catered food...

The fortress..

The fortress...

Well i'm actually happy, cause I made it to edge.. haha i think they said if it doesn't get burned down we have to do it again.. i think.. so apparently it went down.. Alright I hope you guys had some better understanding.. Jason here..signing out from the song kah "backstage"..

a song within

I always thought that every situation, every happening has a song to describe it.. hidden, in it. Much like what desmond(sorry to take what u have said into my post! hehe) mentions the way he fits songs into ppl, it's kinda like within each and every object.. and hey... it's not that difficult to understand is it? so long as you can feel the "goosebumps" when hearing that song(amen pastor jeremy).

But then i realised it's gotta be something deeper.. deeper than our feelings.. otherwise... all of us would only be reactions... Let me show you a portion of 7 HEP which speaks about love.. maybe you will understand..

" At one seminar where I was speaking on the concept of proactivity, a man came up and said, "Stephen, I like what you're saying. But every sitiuation is so different. Look at my marriage. I'm really worried. My wife and i just don't have the same feelings for each other we used to have. I guess i just don't love her anymore and she doesn't love me. What can I do?"
"The feeling isn't there anymore?" I asked.
"That's right," he affirmed."And we have three children we're really concerned about.What do you suggest?"
"Love her,"I replied.
"I told you, the feeling just isn't there anymore."
"Love her."
"You don't understand.The feeling of love just isn't there."
"Then love her.If the feeling of love isn't there, that's a good reason to love her."
"But how do you love when you don't love?"
"My friend, love is a verb. Love-the feeling- is a fruit of love, the verb. So love her. Serve her. Sacrifice. Listen to her. Emphatize. Appreciate. Affirm her. Are you willing to do that?""

-7 HEP

I am convinced that to study love, you have to study those who sacrifice for others, even for the people who offend or do not love in return, that's why I study Christ, and not dig up 'facts'. That man didn't have much faith, in fact he didn't even thought of stepping out.. he didn't know he could.. "Love is a value that is actualized through loving actions".

For this i am speechless, like i remember once when elvin's singing 'How deep the Father's love'. He couldn't sing and kept crying. i thought then, wow, something powerful. Now i know, it's the effect of the Father's love, too deep that he couldn't even describe it, yet at the same time he showed it perfectly. I am speechless, and as I continue my walk with Christ, I guess i'll still be..

clothes of God..

You know when i heard pastor matthew barnet saying that he actually preached to the trees.. i thought for a moment, hey.. i think it's a very good way to practise our faith.. so i did this ...

"Clothes of God! Clothes of God! Clothes of God!" I prophesied.

"Do you want the double anointing?", I said.

It stank in response.

"Do you want the triple annointing?", I said.

It stank in response.

"Do you want the quadruple annointing?", I said.

It stank in response.

"Do you want it all?"

-_-

Tagged and tagged and tagged...

What can I say... you guys made the right decision to tag me... I've got the weirdest things inside of me.. muahahaha so for those of u who think u know me.. here goes...





"this is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game.. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things about themselves as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog."



1. I SQUAT(DON'T LAUGH! HAHA) look at the pic and u will know.. anyways it wasn't me who did that.. i shan't elaborate, but i inherited this habit(HAHA!) Wha lau that's my favourite seat la... of all times.. so i was totally sad.. when i came back seeing it broken.. sobs.. weird enough?




2. I don't like shitake mushroom, i find it smelly.. that's weird.. cos it's called xiang(fragrant) gu in chinese.. you all better don't sabo me into eating it.. i have"merlion" syndrome...


3. I make all sorts of funny noise when I'm sleeping ocassionally... one typical night i can make a grrr, then a falsetto ahhh, then a vibrato hmmm, then a combination of haa emm.. and the list goes on.. don't ask me why.. maybe that's my way of showing that i'm comfartable and Goodnight Jesus... haaa

4. I can watch a movie alone.. and i kinda like it.. i can understand the show better haha

5.I love Dakota Fanning... i think she's a great actress and she's sweet..

6.I think weirdness is just a form of whimsy..Does that count?

OK the six lucky ones areeeeeee:

Matthew Wee
Clement Lim
Charis Wong
Daniel Ng
Ling Hui
Gary Koh

HAHA! all these haven kana before... wha haha

Man it's been a long time since i have last blogged... so... rite, no more food this time.. pretty busy with school this past time... which haha i'm delighted to declare that i've finished exams and my first year in Ngee Ann Poly! Geee i hope i do well... yeah, i'm sure i will... have to be affirmative... have to... really...

Anyways, throughout this period i've realised much, many of which i really thank God and have been truly blessed... i mean, forget about my ipod(ouch), Botak Jones, or even DotA(sorry guys) ... i've kinda understand that it's by exposing yourself to many of the different lives of others that you'll experience the sweetness in each of them... no matter what there's definitely some of it inside each of us, even if we are a tragedy...

i've learnt that friendship matters much... and believing in them is probably the most you can do for them, even if they failed you... If God gives you your gifts, then your friends are most likely there for you to exercise it...

Well i've actually joined nursery for some time now, and i gotta say it's cool i love it... kids are notoriously adorable if that's the right word haha, begging to be hugged ha!! and loved.... so i actually got into the ministry and, i realised that hey small things do count! small things, no matter how small, just small.... i'm not really talking about the kids though, but rather what you do to them... i was just playing with baby ashton and

wow ok here's the handsome boy... so i was just playing with him yesterday at the youth net rally... then i was rather stupid.. ya i know... to give him a unopened sweet wrapper that i figured he could get curious about... it was only when his mum asked about it that i realised... small things, big difference... babies are delicate... most things are anyway...

Alright so much for babies.. for the record this picture of ashton is taken by me.. it's copyrighted too so... too bad.. haha kiddinggg i know he's irresistable... anyways... just a quick review i probably going write some songs and post it here.. so stay tune... oh well... i'll stay in tune, try...